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Ok so it's been a pretty long time since i last posted... Just had the mood all of a sudden to do some random typing, and so here i am... Let's see... It's been a few months since i left the service, let's just say life has been... Mediocre.

I must say, i actually miss army life quite a bit... Insanity no doubt, but there're always feelings of nostalgia whenever you move on. Not like i totally love everything that i went through, but there're just some parts that makes me sit there thinking about some of the old times...

The one thing most people that have ORDed would realise is that army life really is a very simple life. It's at the very least carefree. You may face nonsensical shits, but at least you know they aren't gonna affect the rest of your life all that much. So you can just live everyday as it is. Besides, it's always nice when you constantly have something to look forward to.

I feel it's so much easier to live a life and pass time when you have something to look forward to. It doesn't have to be something big, just every now and then, perhaps an upcoming activity, a meeting with old friends or anything, as long as there's something to look forward to, time passess happier.

In any case, not that my life has nothing to look forward to now, if anything there's the largest thing i'll be looking forward to, but nostalgia is a hard feeling to combat. There's always this mixed feeling going on. One side i really can't wait to get to Australia and begin my all new phase in life, the other side, i just can't bare to let certain things go... Like i haven't enjoyed enough yet...

Right now, giving tuition to kiddies is my main source of time spender and also how i survive on a day to day basis. I'm not getting all that much money, but at least my time is determined by myself. In a way, this is a different sort of lifestyle by itself. I'm beginning to be really impressed with myself for the amount of patience i sometimes have to generate, and i truely thank God for the resillence needed and the emphathy to understand and properly teach the kids.

Now all i need is for all these qualities to apply for the rest of my life. Anyway, it's not like i don't enjoy teaching them. It can be quite fun really. I do get a form of entertainment when i teach, and i guess this might be sort of my calling or something. It feels great when you can make someone understand something they did not previously.

Well, in any case, it won't be long before i have to really start preparing for the next 2.5 years of my life. There're actually quite a number of things i'll need to settle. Visa, confirming my accomodation, getting money over, and the whole load of things i'll need to buy. In the end, money is always the biggest issue. Well, no issue is an issue if we place it unto our father God...